The Story Of A Heartbroken Girl

There was this girl who actually don't trust any guys after her first bf. She got hurt & scared because it was her very first. They didn't stead officially and that made her ensure that her next love must be official. 1 year went passed and she finally met this guy who she really didn't know that he would be the special one for her.

They started off with friends, started knowing each other better & the guy showed to her that he is someone who is passionate towards love, loyal & will never hurt girls again like how he accidentally hurt his first love. This girl fell in love with him because she was sure that he will protect her & won't hurt her like how her first love did. 

Their relationship started off to be a shy one & slowly slowly, it became like they were lovers, best friends, sisters, brothers. This relationship really made this girl felt so comfortable & happy with. Once again, it wasn't a official stead & this girl suffered so much from others' negative comments and gossips about this unofficial love. Finally after months, the guy asked for a proper stead & she was too happy & everything was   close to perfection. 

They had quarrels frequently. Mostly lame & childish ones. Both of them were so near to giving up each other almost all the times. But they persevered on each time & he proved & showed to her that he really loved her. He made her believed that they could last till marriage. After every quarrel, they seemed to love each other more & more. 

He was the first guy that she felt proud of. She dare to tell people that he was her bf. Dare to let her family members know about this relationship. Dare to invite him to her house. Go around telling people that "Hey that's my bf. And I'm proud to show off because i know its different this time round." Dare to take pictures together. Dare to upload those photos. Doing silly things together, making sure each other do well in examinations so that they can have a good future. Those days were really the happiest days in her life.

Although he always text other girls and they had quarreled over this million of times, he proved to her that he will never change his love for her. He was the one who fell so deeply for her & then made her fell so deeply for him. 

His first love had caused him to suffer from depression. He can't cry even if he is feeling extremely miserable. But then this girl made him cried after a big quarrel and when she said she wanna break up with him. He cried because he thought he lost her. That was how strong the love was.

Out came o levels results. They went into different JCs. They somehow promised each other that their love must stay strong. They made so many plans to be together despite going into different colleges. However after the first day of orientation, he decided to appeal to the jc that she was in. She felt so happy because they can be in the same school again and she can see him everyday in school. But who knows that all these would came to an end? 

He said he don't love her anymore. He said he want her to focus on her studies. They broke up. She begged him. He don't want her anymore.  He want to be completely free from her. Everyone knows he dumped her for someone who is prettier, skinner, more gentle, know how to dance, good in English and many many more. Such a sudden breakup really makes her unable to handle it. She still need to see him in school everyday with other girls. Still need to see how their own love fades while his love & others develops. This type of breakup is common. But she never expected it to happen to her, simply just because it was him who loved her so deeply first. 

1 month of struggling to get over him passed. Even after one month, she still breaks down. Still can't get over him. Still loves him so strongly. But what about him? Living his life happily, not knowing how much pain he brought to her. Trying to get over him is like trying to climb a very slippery, rocky mountain. Everytime when she has climbed half of the mountain, she will always slip off and fall back to the bottom of the mountain. Right now, she don't dare to trust anyone. Don't dare to love anyone. Just because she don't want someone hurt her again. She don't want to get hurt again because she got hurt so so so so badly this time. All she want from the beginning was just to have someone to truly love her and love her forever. Is it that difficult? 

"I locked up my heart and threw the key away. Next time round, I'm not letting anyone to come into my heart with a knife, stab me so many times & leave me bleeding, just like what you did."