Emotional

Totally can't believe how emo I was today. Can't believe I actually cried (abit but holding my tears back) in class. My results are bad and I really miss how we used to give each other motivation to study. You were my motivation. But now, I seemed to lost this motivation. I relied too much on you I guess. Just really don't know what to do after you left. Even though it has been 2 months plus. Sorry my fellow friends for having mood swings. 

All those orientation related things actually affect me so much. I didn't even realise. Bad memories, stop coming to me I beg you. 

You were perfect. Or should I say, that I had actually grown to regard you as my perfection. I miss how you would always buy panadol for me. My head really hurts a lot a lot.. I miss helping you comb your hair, touching your hair, cuddling together. 

Maybe I shouldn't keep on thinking back. But, this heart pain really changed me totally.