S-ANDRAAAA

"I hate you" , "You this bastard" , "Idgaf to him" , "Heck care him la" 

All these are what I said to myself so as to hide the fear in me that I have lost you.

You said nothing changed for you after the breakup because you still have girls for you to act like couple with. 

You even want to kill me for those people you know for 1 month only. 

You don't want me anymore, you don't need me anymore. 

You never even once thought back of those things we once did.

You never once thought back of those things I did for you.

But everyday I look back at those memories, unknowingly. 

I bottled up my feelings, pretending that I'm really really okay.

But then, I broke down occasionally. 

Literally just sit down and cry and cry and cry. 

Nothing hurts you at all. You continued to live a happy and full of love life. 

How can you not be affected at all? 

You were the one who made me believed that you loved me so much. 

You were the one who made me believed that we would have a great future ahead. 

You were the one who made me believed that as long as you love someone, you can do anything so as to keep him/her. 

I'm not skinny, not pretty, can't dance, can't sing, not sporty, don't have big eyes, don't love animals. 

But aren't all these you said you don't mind at all? 

Maybe I'm not those type of girls who can make guys love me truthfully. 

Because everyone says I'm just the replacement of the previous. 

Nobody knows how hurt I am deep down. 

The only thing I can do now is to just forget everything, move on, do well in a levels. 

I wish I can move on quickly. Idw to be miserable everyday when I see you. 

Because whenever I see you, I think of all the memories. 

But then, all you think of is other people, other things. 
Right now, I don't even have the confidence to take pictures of myself. 
Nobody I can show to, nobody to compliment me.
I miss everything...
I just hope that you will always remember me as the one who did so much for you. The one who was so proud to have you as her bf.