What is wrong with me

Sadness overwhelmed me just now hahahahahahaha but i feel much better now after releasing everything out through crying. Yes, i cried a lot. My family used to name me as crybaby when i was young. Well, everyone has their own way of releasing sadness right? Im born this way to make myself feel happier. I know crying doesnt help but it reallys makes me feel so much better

And then i decided to blog even though im feeling super normal now. Unfortuanately, those things are now conquering my mind, making me to think of them. I think only very few people know about my blog. So if you are reading this and you are a friend of mine, just read and dont ask me anything hahahahahahahhahaa lol

People read me like a book. They say im too naive and innocent and perhaps dumb at times so it is easier for them to read what i am thinking & how am i feeeling. I find it very scary when people can say out what i am thinking & how am i feeling. It just doesnt give me any piracy? I feel so exposed HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

And now, something has triggered the emotions in me. I feel utterly sad just now.  But, it takes 2 hands to clap isnt it? How is it possible for me to make this thing the way i want it to be. How is it possible for me to say out my feelings. And at this moment, nobody seems to understand why things are like this even though i have the support from all of them.
How i wish that things arent like this now.
I know i have the choice to make things not like they are now. But im very indecisive :(( How do i explain all these....

Everything matters. The opinions and point of views of other people are very important to me. They affects me a lot a lot. It is very difficult for me to ignore them.

Idw to be like them, idw people to regard it as informal, idw it to be like this, i dont want. But it is not up to me only. What can i do?

How i wish i can know what people are thinking.

Then, there will be no misunderstandings, no problems, everyone will live in peace and harmony.

How i wish that people know what we are thinking.

I wish.......

I wish.......

For a fairy godmother that dotes on me and makes my wishes come true